Thankful for Cancer!

Well...it is a time for thanksgiving

But, I'm guessing that the Title of my Post

Might have caused you to take a second glance!

How in the world can I be 

Thankful for Cancer

Considering how it has ravaged my body

Wreaked havoc on my life

And thrown me into prolonged, acute mental, emotional and spiritual distress?

Great Question:)

Tomorrow will be exactly 

One year and nine months 

Since the "circular mass" 

Was first discovered and this journey began.

So...how can I be thankful for cancer?

To be honest...

I didn't think I would ever be able to say that.

I've fought it

Battled it

Struggled with it

And, at times, felt like it would beat me and destroy me

As I grappled daily with its impact

On my life:

Weakness

Depression

Pain

Loss

But, miraculously, here we are!

To put it simply

Which, of course, it is not...

God is using Cancer to change me!

Yep

Who would have guessed you could teach such an old dog new tricks!

But, such is the miracle working power of a great God:)

He really can cause ALL THINGS to work together for the good of those who love Him

Even Cancer...

I never would have imagined it possible 

As I've struggled and strived over the past almost two years

But, it is so...

To put some tangibles to what I'm saying:

I am thankful for my extreme weakness

Because it has caused me to find new found strength in God's power

In my weakness

And not merely because I'm overcoming my weakness.

Do you get the difference?

I have internal peace I never could have imagined

In the thick of my journey 

With its pain and surprises and ups and downs

Because my peace, is like never before,

Not dependent upon my circumstances

I.e. health, finances, successes, etc...

But my confidence in His goodness and wisdom

To do in and with me what is best for me!

So...

How can I not be thankful for Cancer

When God is using it in such amazing ways?

Another Great Question!!

Does that mean that I like my Cancer?

Want to keep my Cancer?

Good grief!  Of course not!!

I'd be delighted if God heals me completely

But, and this is the kicker,

My joy and peace are NOT dependent on that

They are rooted in God!

One final thought:

Please, please don't think that I think that I will no longer struggle:)

Oh, yes, there will still be hard days

Probably lots of them.

But, I'm making progress!

P.S. I had an EKG yesterday and everything with my heart looks great after the cardioversion

Yay!

This Friday, November 20th, I meet with the oncologist to discuss the echocardiogram results

And how we will continue to proceed with my treatment.

Thanks so much again for praying and caring and supporting!