Tomorrow

Tomorrow is the day I didn't want to come...

An ultrasound guided thoracocentesis (I think I spelled it right!)

To put it in layman's language:

My left lung will be drained of about one and a half liters of fluid

It's been getting increasingly difficult to breathe with more shortness of breath especially when I bend over to pick something up

It's supposed to be a quick in and out (two hours) procedure

It's just the history I talked about in my last blog that's there in the back of my mind:(

The hope is that with the fluid gone, my left lung can re-expand improving my breathing

That is the unknown...

If the fluid will come back

Quickly

Slowly

Partially

Completely

Or...not at all

Which would obviously be the optimum desired end:)

The waiting and deciding process has been hard...and good

Hard, because it's felt like the "beginning of the end"

And I like to breathe!!

Good, because it's made me continue to fight to "set my mind on things above, things that are good and lovely" and to learn practically, not just theoretically, that God is good and even in this, yes this cancer journey, he will cause it (me) to be used for good!

That sounded like a very brave statement

But believe me...

I feel mostly very weak most of the time!

Again, your encouragements and prayer and support mean more than you can imagine:)

Thanks

PS - One more thing about tomorrow that has added heartache...

My mom entered Hospice today and I just got word that she has only hours to live before going to her eternal home

Prayer for our family is much appreciated

Thanks again