Back At It

Yesterday I began again The Treatment Program

After 10 days trying to figure out what was thought to be an allergic reaction to something

10 days later we still aren't sure what is going on

We stopped all the supplements and anything that we thought might be contributing to the rash and itching that makes me want to scratch my skin off of my body

But no real change

While I'm sitting here typing this, I am working hard at not scratching my skin off but I'm only being minimally successful:(

I am successfully restraining myself from screaming so as not to wake up Cindy!

So the best educated guess, at this point, is that what is going on in my body is actually a good thing

It is part of the detoxing process

My body ridding itself of stuff that needs to go for my body to be healthy
(do you like my scientific way of describing things!)

Like Candida

Which would be incredible
(you would understand if you've seen my toenails or the fingernails on my right hand!)

So The Treatment Program continues

With the hope that as the detoxing continues

And the yuck gets out

The itching and rash will merrily go its way also:)

To be honest, it was hard starting up again

After 10 days of not having to take 200 supplements every day and not having to get up every 45 minutes or so during the night

It was like a dark cloud beginning to descend and envelop my mind again

But after Day Two "back at it", I'm beginning again to get into the routine

Working again at a deep peace that guards my heart and mind day and night, day and night in the thick of My Cancer Journey as I'm learning to give it all to God constantly "with thanksgiving"

Yes...thanksgiving!

(some of you are thinking that I've really lost it now!)

That was the thought that went through my mind yesterday as I was thinking about this "nothing that I would have chosen" Cancer Journey that has become my new daily

Thanksgiving

For What?

For God offering me the opportunity to know Him and experience Him in a way that I haven't yet in my almost 65 years

As I learn to, in a way that I've never had to or chosen to, depend upon Him for grace and peace and joy and contentment

When I feel like scratching my skin off or giving up or spiraling into despair because of this Cancer Journey

Hmmm...

That is my daily desire and challenge and battle

Thanks again for all the support and encouragement:)