Day One

I made it through Day One!

To be totally transparent...it wasn't a total program Day One.

I won't receive half of my supplements until Wednesday, so instead of having to take 200+ supplements today I only had to take 100+!

Talk about a cake walk, right?

NO!

Let me give you a glimpse...

Every 4 hours I need to take 14 capsules of the pancreatic enzymes. 

The schedule is as follows:  12 am, 4 am, 8 am, 12 pm, 4 pm and 8 pm.

I'm a good pill taker...no, I don't mean that I take lots of pills.  I avoid taking medication unless I'm about to die, which is why, I guess, I'm taking so many pills now!

What I mean is that I can down a bunch of pills in one gulp, if needed.

Not these babies...they are BIG!

It takes me a pint of water (reverse osmosis, of course) just to get them all down.  It's a mental battle as I tried to swallow 6 of them the first time and almost regurgitated them all back.  So 3 is the limit.

The kicker is that I cannot have any food or drink (water excepted) one hour before or one hour after taking the pancreatic enzymes so they can do their thing without having food to digest.

That gives me two hour windows between enzyme intake (e.g. 5 am - 7 am) to eat breakfast, lunch and dinner or any snack, or wait until the next window.

Which isn't as easy as it may sound with the demands of my diet...e.g. fresh made vegetable juice 2-4 tines/day, NO microwave, so everything needs to be cooked fresh, not to mention certain special foods that must be prepared and eaten daily as part of the diet (e.g. chia seeds soaked in coconut milk and fresh made almond milk).

Add to this a one-hour detox every morning and evening and Day One (minus 100 capsules!) has made it really clear that The Treatment Program is going to be life-consuming!

Which doesn't make Day Two something that I'm particularly anticipating:(

So, as you can tell, a huge part of this journey is going to be the mental battle...

Another round of pills, another detox, another thing to prepare...just to do it again and again and again and again...you get the idea.

Thoughts that go through my mind...

Is this living?  What is my purpose?  Can I find joy in the midst of this?  Why?

Thanks for listening...as I continue to share my journey and wrestle with the reality of what my life has become...