Sunday, February 21, 2021

Two Years + Surgery!

February 19, 2019 - February 19, 2021

What a two-year journey it has been

Since that fateful day when I visited my Primary Care Physician

Thinking I was merely battling with my every other year bout with pneumonia

To discovering a "circular mass" that ended up being malignant pleural mesothelioma!

What a two-year journey...

Being deemed incurable by the Seattle Cancer Care Alliance

Going through eight months of an incredibly strict and challenging alternative program

Beginning the traditional route of chemo and immunotherapy treatment in January 2020

With a "Hail Mary" prognosis of it being successful

Which unexpectedly brought with it a variety of extras such as: 

Dying and being brought back to the land of the living by CPR

Shingles

Atrial Flutter requiring a cardioversion

Gallbladder surgery - soon to be revealed!

And so this past Friday was to be a day of hilarious rejoicing and remembering

Celebrating God's grace in lengthening my life to two years and counting

When the prognosis was far less hopeful.

What a journey it has been

Which you can recount by reading

All the previous 80 blog posts

If you are so inclined and needing something to help you fall asleep some night!

BUT...

Instead I was at St. Michael's Medical Center (aka Harrison Hospital)

Awaiting gallbladder surgery 

Which happened yesterday, Saturday, February 20, 2021.

The adventure continues!!

This particular mini-adventure began on Thursday, February 18, 2021.

As had been increasingly the case for many days

I was in a lot of pain - particularly abdominal pain

That was becoming excruciating pain

Enough so that Cindy convinced me to go to the Emergency Room

Which we were able to accomplish

With Cindy canceling her Olympic College classes for the day

And us being able to drive up our steep Tahuya driveway with its 18 inches of snow!

I had managed to avoid visiting the new Silverdale hospital

But avoid it I was no longer able to do.

After many tests it was revealed that my abdominal pain was a bad gallbladder.

Who would have guessed the variety of mini-adventures

That would become a part of my cancer journey!

The surgery was initially scheduled for Friday

But was delayed until I underwent a heart evaluation

Since the latest CT scan newly revealed fluid in the area surrounding the heart.

More on this later...

The doctors were comfortable that my heart could handle the operation

And so it happened yesterday, Saturday

And, as you probably guessed, since I am writing this blog on Sunday

I did survive the operation!

And, it was successful

Meaning that I am now minus a troublesome gallbladder

That has been making my life miserable for who knows how long!

It will be interesting to discover over the next days and weeks

Just how much of my pain and weakness has been due to that little bugger.

A wonderful side note to my hospital adventure

Was the number of great conversations

That popped up regarding The Coffee Oasis and my love for Jesus.

God certainly does "cause all things to work together for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose"

Even trouble-making gallbladders!

It is certainly wonderful to be home with Cindy

After being separated for nearly two days throughout the ordeal

Due to hospital COVID restrictions not allowing visitors in hospital rooms!

That was tough...

I guess no more greasy hamburgers soaked in grease and then fried in more grease!

So...I think that brings things up-to-date with my cancer journey

So...until next time:

Remember that God is good

Eat less grease and fat

Love well your family, friends and strangers

Blessings,

Dave

Tuesday, February 9, 2021

Wandering in the Wilderness

My older sister, in a text to me this morning, 

Compared my current situation

To the wandering of the Israelites in the wilderness for 40 years.

It resonated as I thought about it...

Going in circles

Continual challenges and hardships

No goal or point or purpose

Except to continue wandering until the older generation was all dead!

And the result was...

Constant complaining, rebellion, unbelief and misery

Throughout their entire 40 years of wandering.

I'm sorry to say...

It does sound a lot like what I've been experiencing the past weeks!

After repeated calls to my oncologist's triage line

Because of my continued daily bodily pain and debilitating weakness

I had an appointment on January 29th

To receive a testosterone injection

To see if that would boost my energy level

As my last blood work showed an extremely low testosterone level in my body.

I have subsequently received two testosterone injections

Which, unfortunately, have not provided any miraculous changes to my body.

I will have blood work done again this coming Friday, February 12th,

Along with a third testosterone injection 

If the blood work continues to show a low testosterone level.

BUT...

The questions still remain:

What in the world is going on with my body?

Why the bodily pain and extreme weakness?

Is this ever going to improve?

Is this the way it's going to be until the cancer takes over and I die?

And, along with the questions, I'm sorry to say

This daily wandering in the wilderness of pain and weakness

Has produced...

More complaining than peace

More doubting than trusting

More misery than joy.

It's been some rough weeks

That I can't imagine having made it through

Without you all who are holding me up

But...

I can't say that I've navigated the past weeks well either.

It's hard to contemplate

Doing this for weeks or months or years

Pain and weakness

With no explanation or understanding

With treatment on hold.

I have been given a referral to a palliative care doctor

With the hope that they can help with pain management.

It doesn't "feel" like I'm dying

Just suffering...

Wandering in this wilderness cancer journey.

Which I do readily acknowledge

Is far less than many of you or your loved ones

Have experienced or are currently experiencing.

But...

That's where I am at today.

It's not where I want to be tomorrow.

I don't want to be like the Israelites as they wandered in the wilderness.

Forgetting God's faithfulness

Forgetting God's goodness

Forgetting God's provision

NO!

So...here is my prayer:

Oh God, I need you!  I desperately need you!  You are my Father.  I am your child. I am so weak. I am so inclined to complain, to doubt your goodness and to forget that you will cause all things-all things-to work together for my good and your glory! I am so easily distracted and derailed by my suffering. I'm so easily dominated by my body and how it feels rather than strengthened in my spirit by your Spirit to keep my thoughts on what is true and eternal. Please help me to live by faith. Please help me to set my mind on things above. Help!!  In the wonderful name of Jesus, Amen.