Tomorrow, Friday, May 15th, will be my 6th chemo and immunotherapy treatment...
And I am anxious about it:(
From a purely rational standpoint
It doesn't make sense to be anxious
My treatments are going well
The cancer is receding
And my doctor is very positive about my prognosis:)
But, nevertheless, I am anxious
Because...
I know that I have a week or so ahead
When I'm not going to feel great
When I'm going to experience the side effects of the drugs going in my body
And...
That with each treatment
The side effects will probably impact me with increasing severity
And...
That the 6th treatment
I.e. This one
Is the turning point
In which one of the chemo drugs
Becomes potentially more detrimental to my body than beneficial.
That makes me anxious!
I know, I know
After everything that I've been through
After all the miracles that I've experienced from a merciful God
And the incredible doctor that I have...
I should be filled with FAITH!
And yet, I am anxious:(
I can definitely relate to Jesus' disciples
When he said to them
When once again they feared or failed to trust instead of having faith in him.
"You men of little faith!"
That's me!
That's probably hard or confusing for some of you
Who have followed my journey
And have assumed that I am a strong person
With incredible faith
Because I'm sharing my journey.
When in reality
I'm sharing because
I need you
Your support
And prayer
And encouragement
And your strong arms holding me up
As I continue on this journey
One day at a time
Learning to trust
As I face each new challenge
That this journey throws at me!
So...
That's it:)
Thanks for hanging in there with me
And for your faithful prayer and support and encouragement and positive thoughts!
I appreciate you all so much:)
Dave
I can totally understand why you feel anxious. We can feel scared and still trust Jesus. Lifting you up in prayer. We love you!
ReplyDeleteHang in my friend, you have come a long way from the despair of a short time ago to the worry about this Friday. Your in the good hands and hearts of many.
ReplyDeleteDave.. your honesty in your blog has been so encouraging to so many. Most of us aren’t going through what you are, but during our struggles, it shows that we need to stand firm in our faith. Will continue to pray for you. ��
ReplyDeleteThank you, Dave, for your transparency and vulnerability. Life has taught me I am not immune. I am human. I am not immune from fear, anxiety, depression, grief, sadness, or anything else that life brings. We need each other, we need encouragement, we need prayer. I will continue to follow your story and to pray for you and your family!
ReplyDeleteSending prayers and love your way Dave. You can do all things in Christ who gives you strength.
ReplyDeleteFaith, family and friends is what gets us through these journeys. I know the anxiety, as I have felt my own over the last year and a half. God bless you Dave. You have inspired many.
ReplyDeleteWe are praying for you Dave! God’s got you on this and He won’t let you go! We love you and ask for the Lord to bring you peace and healing, little side effects and a much better round than you expect, in the name of Jesus! Amen!
ReplyDeleteWe love you!
Ru and Steve
Lifting you up in prayer brother! Thank you for sharing your heart. It takes courage. My cancer journey may have been different, but I remember those anxious feelings all too well and the frustration I would feel with myself for having them. What a scary and incredible journey you have been on. Your story gives hope to do many. God bless you!
ReplyDeleteThanks Dave, for once again letting us in on your thinking. That has to be one of the reasons Jesus keeps us on the planet instead of whisking us to heaven the minute we become one of His. It's this passing the baton of what we've learned to others. And learning is best done in these dire circumstances. Argh.
ReplyDeletePraying for peace as you sit today and let the drip happen.
You are not alone Dave. Thank you for your courage and for being honest. I know the treatments are really hard and so I’m praying that Jesus will be closer to you than the air you breathe. May you feel his arms around you.
ReplyDeleteYou are not alone Dave. Thank you for your courage and for being honest. I know the treatments are really hard and so I’m praying that Jesus will be closer to you than the air you breathe. May you feel his arms around you.
ReplyDeleteDave I am praying for you right now - that your anxiety recedes and you are filled with peace. That you feel God's presence walking you through this ordeal. God is with you.
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